my oh my.. it has been such a long time since i have posted! lets see what has been happening.. well for one thing I have learned to never trust anyone, it always comes back to bite you in the ass, even when you havent done anything. thank god i have someone that loves me enough to talk to me and work through things. Im so grateful that I havent lost him! He is my one and only now. seems like the only one I can talk too as well. some things I just dont understand, but I guess they are not meant for me to understand.
anyway, moving on to better things... I am going back to school the end of may. Im finally doing it, going to finish my bachelors. I meet with the counselor from the school this week to see how many of my credits will transfer, how many of my military schools withh transfer for credit too. Im really excited about this move! I have been talking about it for years, well I finally just took the first step to get the ball rolling. Im actually excited about learning.. kinda scary isnt it..lol Also, I am getting out of the military next september.. sept 2, 2008 to be exact. hopefully I will be getting close to having my degree by then too.. then Im going to do whatever it is that I would like to do. finally for the first time in my life, im making my own decisions and not decisions based on my family or what they think and boy does it feel great! well im closing for now... peace, love and chicken grease....

LET IT SNOW, LET IT SNOW, LET IT SNOW.....!! I hope to be snowed in this weekend... yea!! watch it not come true though.. lol. we will just have to wait and see!

Why do people try to become other people? why not just be themselves? no one is going to love them the same just because they are trying to be someone else. the kicker is, this person, was running around saying i was her "best friend".. whatever. friends like that who needs enemies.. anyway, enough said.
cant wait to see you sis

First of all, let me say: I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. I know some of us cant be where we want to be, just keep your head up doll. It will get better, I have been in those shoes before. It sux, but you just have to make the most of it. Remember we all still love you up here in TN.

I CANT WAIT FOR MY SIS TO BE IN TN!!! Now who hasnt posted in forever...lol.. least you have something new to look at.. surprise!! ya hear me!
do you ever wonder... if things hadnt had happened, like being deployed, if things would have ever changed and if they were supposed to change? sometimes i get too caught up in thinking i guess. maybe its just new territory that still scares the shit outta me. i keep waiting for something bad to happen, the bottom to fall out.. when will i learn to actually trust and not think about these things? fuck!
anyway, will try to do better on the posting sis.. love ya.. ]
peace in the head... grease..lol

well folks, the scrub has been a little under the weather. something new to me has arisen.. acid reflux.. they think. dont you just love that answer. all I know is that I couldnt keep anything down and was pukin up everything and nothing. I think it is too much on my mind at once. funny how stress can do things to your body. so now, im on the bland diet for a week, no alcohol (sux), no carbonated drinks.. lovely i tell ya. but other option maybe a scope going down the throat. why cant things just stay ok..lol. anyway, sis.. I know exactly how u feel about missing everything and all I can say is adapt and overcome til you can come up with a plan to get closer. remember the good times, they always help for some reason. know that people are there for you regardless, and guess what.. people miss you being here as much as u miss it. ( if that makes any sense). just hang in there, something will come along..
TINA..what up wit ya?

Anyone who reads this blog.. please send a prayer up for Pam Baker-Cook. She is in the hospital trying to fight cervical cancer. she only weighs around 75-80 pounds. I Hate cancer!